I often wonder why you don’t love me. What I had to realize was why I don’t love me. You have done so many things to hurt me. But the key is why I don’t love me. I have put so many people in my life before me. I often wonder how many will do it for me. You have beat me, robbed from me, broke my heart to only tell me you love me. I would have given you the world, but I have to learn to love me. Thank you for showing me that I can do anything in life if I put me first. Now I see the light I have to love me.

Okay there is a child missing and the mother is out of town and the step father story is not adding up. But what I don’t understand is why the mother wait a whole day before she called to say her child is not home. Why are we putting so much trust into people that don’t want children. If CPS has taken the child why the child didn’t get a chance to go to the biological father. Why we don’t have some guys asking this stepdad where and why he killed this baby. I don’t understand why the mother is not torn down more than she is showing us on the news. Why is she talking about this baby in past tense already. Why is the step brother still around and not missing with the step daughter. So many unanswered questions but little time finding the baby. Is the mother involved with the step dad. How do we know that this was not a set up? To many kids coming up dead in the hands of parents that are not protecting their children.

Okay today the weather has been very bad and I know that on the north side it was very crazy. While on the north side of Houston the rain was coming down hard but on the south side of Houston it was light. No rain on the south side till later on today. In Kingwood it is already flooding and schools are flooded as well. Why can’t Houston come up with a better system for the water. The next thing you know the rain is gone and the sun is shining in Houston.

This semester has been a challenge for me. Full time student and working full time is very hard. It’s easy for the youngsters but I am getting up in age lol. I have learned so much in my English, Correction and Interview Writing class. In my English class I enjoyed finding my weak spots in writing and addressing them. In my Corrections class I have the best teacher Dr. Ring, and in my interview class I learned so many different ways of writing reports and how things can be taken the wrong way so fast. I am still learning after so many years of being out of school. I was pushed by an amazing person(Smile) to not give up and keep going to finish. I sometimes find myself having a hard time pushing myself and I call on her. I do have some learning to do and I made a promise to her to not give up.

Today I have learned that I can’t make everyone. I have to accept that part in life. no matter who it is you can’t please everyone. My parents sometimes are the worse at trying to make them both happy. I am the only child and I do so much for them as I feel I should. My heart is always in the right place when it comes to my parents because they have done so much for me when I was growing up. I try to give them the world because they give me the world when I was growing up. I can’t change my parents but I have to accept them as they are. Love my parents but I have to accept I can’t change them.

I have been learning so much when it comes to writing down my feelings. Listening to music and writing help calms me down when I am stressing out. I have been having some hard times these last few weeks. I have been staying to myself and just wondering how my life could be better. I love hard and sometimes I can be a butt hole. I do be myself. I want to travel to so many places but I hold myself back with so much. I want so much in life and I am working hard to get my goals achieved.

Some people will show you their face card of who they are. Not everyone will change but some will give you what your looking for but you have to be willing to accept it. There is an old saying ” If I show you my face card take it at face value” meaning I am who I am if I show you just accept me as I am or leave me alone. Sometimes we give people too much credit when they only need a little. I learned this week that sometimes people will do things to get what they want. I had a guy that cursed everyone out ,but I heard him do the same to another company. That’s how he gets everything free in life. he has shown his face card so many times to different people. So that is who he is and I accepted that. Learn to accept people as they are and you wont expect to get hurt or disrespected.

No matter how a person feel about you or see you, don’t change who you are. I have seen so many people change for others and don’t be happy and end up not liking them. Be honest with yourself about how you feel and who you are. People will either like you or not. BE YOU!!!!

Many people don’t realize that stress will cause a lot of pain to you. Please take care of yourself. I have been stressing for years and finally realized that I have to allow things to be free. I have to let go and let God. I cant control everything and help everyone. I try to help everyone all the time and be there for them no matter what. Talk to someone about what your going thru so you don’t have to stress.

Many people have a serious issue with depression. I have several friends that is going through this and needs someone to talk too. I understand that many people feel that if they just don’t act on it maybe it will go away, but sometimes it is very hard to do and many will not be able to fight depression. I see so many posts on FaceBook that people are struggling with depression and we sometimes just have to listen to the signs. My wish is to be able to help a person on a doctors level. I am a very helpful person and will talk to my friends when they need to have someone to talk too. I appreciate them coming to me and not having them go off the deep in. I know some people will think about suicide when they are dealing with depression. Depression is very real and please either find someone to talk to or go get some professional help. I try my best to talk to my friend as much as I can and sometimes just listen. I hope if your going through this issue please try to reach out to someone that can help you and be by your side.